love points me to life

I wish you'll find your life soon..but knowing our SELF takes lifetime..if life continues into eternity it is then an eternal knowing..knowing what we really are. It is not directionless nor meaningless nor fruitless effort. Our position in this life..this world we are living with gives us the greatest wonder..this wonder is the knowldge of our own existence feeling the power in us..opening our eyes..and feeling how our body moves..our spirit in us animates this physical reality..this body we possess and move and act in this life..it gives us oh, an almost undescribable joy..for at least we found the freedom in us..manifesting this life we have...and as the passage of moments we begin to find something more deeper in essence..it is love..love that gives color and bliss to a very meaningful reality. what this world's worth when someone's yearnings deemed nothing? when our longings are gone? when our life is but emptiness? behold, we are always resurrected by love. love is the essence of my existence. i cant live without love....i live or will die because of love..the movement of life directs to its most fundamental manifestation that is through love and ony love..i reap nothing from the intellect..logic becomes irrational...there is no more risky but most exciting moment than plunging ourselves into the vast sea of love. eros divines our life..eros makes us blush? oh, will ever the machinistic intellect or logic makes me long for more than the eternal enchantment of love? ...life is one and only once..i take life into its deepest possible meaning. i always deeply involve my sefl to anything..i cant take for granted the time that is there..life is fast moving....i cant simply let life slip into the sea of nothingess and rendered into meaninglessness..oh, i love life..how so much it amazes me..emracing it into its full fury and vigor and beauty and wonder and dulllness..this are all equally exciting but blended with loneliness..but not all the way..a life without meaning....our capacity to feel pain or sadness gives us the insight that we in the end can attain the purest joy we always long for.i love you and i always love you and i really do! i cant deceive myself..the intensity of my devotion and sincerity give you the insight that i am after this purity of love..when you feel..i am so sorry if i am too much a busybody in your life..i never meant anything..i never meant....you could have teach me too how to love..i am not all knowing i am not perfect..i am nobody in this world...trying somehow to find my way home..i've wish my home is your heart..ohh, i am afraid and with utter sadness..you make it slowly adrift away from me....do i still have to cry and mourn my fate? my heart tells me not to leave you..not to let you go...oh, my dear ..dearest dear...my love have let you go to find yourself...my heart is infinitely vast and open..embracing your life..your whole reality..only in time..it takes a distance for a while..allowing you to find yourself..we cant just deceive our hearts trying to mend everything that is not supposed or necessary to be fixed....i am so sorry so much for making you sometimes if not always uneasy my deary dear..i am but nobody...i am but nothing in this world..who am i to move someone's life? just a wish in my life..as tears flow from by deep and lonely eyes..someday it could find its home..and ever longing...before there's the ultimate repose how i wish someday that i could have the sweetest sleep with the most endearing smile in my lips. i love you. With greatest love I feel.i love you always..i love you so much and i love you..oh, if you could only see my heart and my life now...too much love cant kill..no matter how much is that...true love always finds itself into the messy life of absurdity and wandering..my life is dynamic....if you know more about life..my heart always tell me to fix where i've gone wrong and to follow your life wherever it goes.